For as long as I can remember I have dismissed age as just a number. What else is it? The number of times your body has held onto the Earth as it has spun around the Sun. Age doesn’t do anything to determine what your life will be like. Nobody can say with confidence, I’ll be this or that when I am 30. This or that when I am 45. Finally past my youth at 87. I hope to be forever young. I hope to see the world through the eyes of a child everyday. If that makes me weird, so be it. Good.
There’s no right way to live your life. There’s no path that everyone should follow. Yet society constructs arbitrary goals that we, at times, mindlessly work towards. For me the biggest mindless goal was university. Go to uni, get a degree, get a job. Grow up. Why? I had an incredible time at university. Six years across two campuses at Ulster with a wealth of life experience under my belt. Stress, temptations, challenges on a wave of highs and lows.
Balancing out started in March. It started by getting up half an hour earlier than usual. Coming downstairs and typing into YouTube, 20 minute guided meditation. I’m not going to say that 20 minutes changed my life. It has changed my outlook on life, but it’s the consistent practice that has lead to change. Not one 20 minute experience.
Since that happened I have been told on three occasions that I am too young to understand and when I am older I will see the world for what it is. Well, I’m calling bullshit. There isn’t an age where people get their life together. There isn’t even a moment. Life isn’t something to hold together. Life is something to dive into head first, kicking and screaming like the big child that you are.
Children are incredible learners. They learn from their mistakes far quicker than adults do. They see the world as the mystery that it is. They don’t have expectations about what should happen. When do we develop these? Whose life are we living? Am I too young to have these? Even though my peers have them.
For me, the mystery of life is a wonder. A wonder that can be enjoyed by knowing thy self. When you are conscious of what drives you. What sparks a fire in your belly. Then you can live your life in the pursuit of those goals. You might be surprised at how you can survive on a little. Turning down money, to free up time. Time is the resource we cannot get more off. Even the King, can only eat one meal at a time. Sleep in one bed at a time.
So take life easy, as the grass grows. Look around once in a while and ask why you’re moving in the direction you’re heading. Who is guiding your decisions? Are you seeing the world with childlike enthusiasm?